So In Love

To my ex-husband,
Well, we did it. We finally got divorced. I can't say it was totally inevitable, but I will say things started to go down hill when you decided to play the lotto. At first, I thought it was just a innocent hobby, I mean lets be real, what person hasn't played the lotto at least once a week? But it became more of an obsession for you. You became secretive and hiding your tickets. You started buying $50 worth of tickets a week! But, I gave you the benefit of the doubt. You worked hard, held steadily three jobs (two of them were part-time). With both of us working during that time, we made time for one another when we could. It was okay until you started going to the casino with your uncle Riley. We thought he had so much money. He was the richest person we ever known, so it was natural to hang out with him to see how he got ahead. Who knew that your dear old uncle Riley was a thief, and what's worse, got you caught up in all of his mess! Talk about being in the family business! I think I may have lost about 40 pounds worrying about you being at those casinos all night! I cared about you and what happened to you. I even lied for you a couple of times to the creditors (or so I thought). Those "creditors" turned out to be loan sharks. What kind of man goes and gambles away his family's home? What kind of man goes out and sells his only transportation for money for slot machines and card games knowing that he may end up losing his job? Who in their right mind would do such a thing? And whats worse, what kind of wife was I to allow you to do it? I mean, I was right there with you sometimes! I even gave you my paycheck on a a promise that you made to repay me. Instead, you allowed me to write checks on accounts you said were valid but were not. Now, I'm the one serving time for check fraud!
Sometimes when I lay awake in my cell at night, I go over and over in my mind what I could have done different, but you know what? I can't say that I would have changed anything! I was so young when you and I got together. I barely knew you, yet I was so in love with you. You were everything I ever wanted-which wasn't very much judging by the way things turned out. I believed everything you told me because you were MY man! You were my husband and I thought we would grow old together and have many children. I was so In love with you. You were my everything, and whatever you wanted, I wanted it too. I was your Bonnie and you were my Clyde. For better or for worse, remember that? Those were the vows we took, and I held on to that even when all the legal trouble, the bad business deals, and the home foreclosing! I stood by you! Even when I was on trial, I defended you and took all the blame because I was so in love with you. Love is what I thought would see us threw. My fifteen year prison sentence is nothing if we loved one another, remember? You  told me that! You made me believe that our love would last. For a while it did. You came to visit me, and bring me gifts! I loved it! I didn't mind being locked up if I knew you were doing well and being safe! But you stopped coming to see me. First it was every weekend, then it became every other weekend, then it was once a month. I finally called the number you gave me, and  another woman answered the phone! At first I couldn't believe it, but when she said she was your wife, I was floored! LITERALLY! I was so devastated that you would take up with another woman while I'm serving time FOR YOU!! It was rough for a while, they put me in lock-up because I tried to kill myself! I just couldn't  live with the thought of you out there free and loving someone else! It wasn't until I joined a bible study on my cell block and started going to the chapel, that I found God. I finally found the missing piece that I was searching for. Jesus saved me FOR REAL! He gave me the strength to live and it it by faith that I am writing this letter to you now! I just wanted to tell you that I will be getting out soon! The fifteen years have been reduced to five! Thank you Jesus! So, I will not try to contact you in any way! Thank you for sending those divorce papers though! That was the best thing you could have ever done for me.I am a free woman, and I have nobody to thank but my Lord and Savior Jesus!!