A Chance Meeting With Noah Carter

I was walking down the side walk and stopped at the Cross Walk when,

"Excuse me, I really like your hair. Where do you go to get it done?"
 - Supreme Diva Hair Studio on Third and Park Ave....Thanks for noticing. (Sigh) I was running low on funds so I had to get the daily special.

"Well, It looks good on you." (Smile)
 - Thanks! Well it was nice talking to you. I've got to run! (Looks down at cell phone while walking away)

A Chance meeting between two strangers and neither one of us ask for a name. Neither one of us cared. This has happened to me before. I have held plenty of conversations with strangers, even talked to them for hours and not once had I asked for a name. Names aren't important anymore. At least not to me. I'm not good with names and I figure if I never ask for it then I'm not required to remember it. Besides, I think it is creepy to remember someone's name after one short conversation anyway. I think it shows that you care more than you should. Sure some might think that it is hospitable to ask for a name and remember it but I was never the hospitable type. When I was a kid I beat up all my friends who came to visit me for play dates and never allowed them to win any games we played. Hospitality? Its just not my thing. I never asked for his name, but he never asked for mine either. I just assumed he was being nice and trying to flirt a bit.

I was entering the library and decided to sit some place quiet until my business partner calls for the big meeting to pitch our business proposal to some local executives. I sat way in the back next to the window where I could see who was entering because I enjoy watching people. As I turned to grab a chair, I noticed the man I saw at the Cross Walk last week,
 
-Hi! It sure is fancy seeing you here! (smile)

"I know, what are the odds?"

-I'd say 1 in a million! (still smiling) This must be some kind of a sign.

"Ha ha (laughter). Maybe...One may never know unless..."
 -(Phone vibrates) Well it was nice meeting you again. I've got to run! (Cell phone vibrates again. Answers phone while walking away)

"(Smiles) Likewise."

Okay. What are the chances of that happening? I hope he doesn't think that I am stalking him. I mean, running into the same stranger again is freaky and why didn't he ask for my name this time? Okay granted, I was the one that spoke to him first this time but he could have insisted to know my name. (Sigh) Oh well, maybe I am reading too much into it. He's just a stranger and nothing more. For all I know he could be a serial killing rapist! Or he could be the man of my dreams! I mean, he did seem optimistic about what meeting me again meant when I mentioned  it being a sign! Maybe he is Gay. He did notice my hair and asked where did I have it done. What straight man asks a question like that? Or maybe it is worse than I think! He could be MARRIED and was asking about a good stylist for his WIFE!
Ugh! Why me?!? I always meet unavailable guys! With my luck he probably is married.

I was at the night club with a few friends when I felt  a hand caress my shoulder and just as I turn to see who it is,

"Hey beautiful."
 -Oh Wow...Hey What's up? (disappointed)

"Well, actually...I had been hoping to run into you again! So...you are what's up. (Smiles)

- Oh Really! (Uncomfortable laughter)...Well, here I am!

"I'm sorry. I never got to ask for your name. From the way you rushed off a few days ago, I was beginning to think my breath smelled! " (Laughs then Smiles).

-Oh yeah, about that...I had a business meeting to get to. I just ran in the library to wait for the call. Don't worry, it wasn't you that made me rush off! (Smiles at him, then looks away)

"Great! Well, I would love to get your phone number. Maybe we can get together for coffee sometime?"

-Oh sure...my name is Kierston and my phone number is 555-3221. What is your name?

" Noah...Noah Carter."

- Well Noah, its nice to have a name to go along with the handsome smile that I've grown fond of over the last week. Noah....I like it. It sounds so...

-"Biblical! (Burst of mutual laughter) I know...you don't see many black guys with biblical names anymore. Most are made up these days! (laughs)

-(smiles then looks at him) I was going to say refreshing, but biblical will work too! (mutual laughter)

(looks down at watch) "Well, Miss Kierston, this time it is I that must run off! (leans over and whispers)...I will call you."
(the sound of his whispering in her ear causes goosebumps. She is instantly turned on.)

-I will be waiting. (watches him walk away.)

Damn. He is Fine! AND he has a very respectable name. Thank God! Noah Carter sounds a hell of a lot better than Ja'Mericas Browman. I bet he works for a successful law firm or maybe he is a billionaire Advertisement Executive. He dresses very well and smells so good. What was his scent? Burberry? Whatever it was he had me at HELLO! He just might be the man of my dreams after all! This is so cool! I shouldn't have told him I would be waiting for him to call me. That would just make him think that I was too available. Hell, who am I kidding?  I NEED A MAN!!  Noah, Call me now, please!
Oh Snap! He wants to go for coffee...I don't drink coffee! I hope it was just a figure of speech! Maybe he meant lunch or dinner. Oh My God!!! He wants to take me out on a date! What will I wear? I have to go shopping for the perfect first date attire! I know just the place. SAKS Fifth Avenue is having a SALE!!  I'm sure he will call this weekend for sure and when he does, I will be ready! Whew!

(Weekend comes and goes. No phone call)

Ugh! I should have gotten his number. Why didn't I get his number when I had the chance? I hate waiting by the phone. I need to get out of this house. I have been waiting all weekend for him to call me and I hadn't gotten one phone call. I need a distraction to take my mind off of Noah Carter, the handsome stranger. I'm going to the club with the girls tonight. Maybe he will be there again. I'm going to wear the dress I bought from SAKS. No sense in letting it go to waste in the closet.

(Week comes and goes. No phone call)

It is now the weekend and there is still no word from Noah Carter. I feel like I have been stood up. Why do I feel like this? Did he tease me on purpose? I'm so frustrated. I have built this fantasy relationship in my head about Noah Carter. It wasn't real. Nothing was real. All a fantasy. I must have misread all the signs. But he whispered in my ear and called me beautiful!! What kind of person would do that and NOT mean it? He asked me out for coffee..didn't he? Is coffee an acceptable first date or is it a friendly date? Oh man, I can't believe this guy got my head so confused! I am so confused. I thought he was really into me but I guess it was just some guy flirting with me to see if he still got it!
He probably threw my phone number in the trash the minute he got it! And to think I bought a dress for  a total stranger to see me in for just one night!  I spent money on a dress for a date that never happened! I even stopped dating just in case he called me. I wanted to be free whenever he was ready! Noah Carter! More like Know A Carter! He probably gave me a fake name! So,  now am I supposed to go around the clubs and bars asking people, "Excuse me, but does anyone Know A Carter?" yeah, I've just played myself! Can't blame the guy for this one. All me!

The Secret Crush

Dear Crush,
My love life hasn't always been easy. In fact, it has been a string of bad relationships. Recently I had just broken up with my boyfriend who threw me out of his hotel room (because he didn't have a place to live) because I wouldn't have sex with him. He told me that God told him that his affection would come from his wife and I was his future wife. He said  that if I wasn't going to give him any affection then I needed to leave. He then became extremely violent screaming and yelling while throwing things around the room. He grabbed my purse from the night stand where I had put  it earlier.He then grabbed my arm, dragging me to the door, opened it with his right hand  and threw me out and with a dramatic flair threw my purse out onto the ground! Surprisingly enough, I was not upset.
Calmly I gathered my things, put on my shades, took one look at the sky and saw how beautiful it was (vowing to never put my self in this type of situation again), got in my car and I left. I never heard from him again only to receive messages that he left on my voicemail explaining how sorry he was. But on my way home I remember asking my self why I couldn't find a decent guy. After all, I didn't want much just someone who was NORMAL!
As I was driving home I saw a billboard advertising two sales associates for a real estate company. Right away I noticed your face. Your eyes caught my attention. Big beautiful hazel brown eyes!  Why couldn't I meet a guy like you? You were professional, young and ambitious. Hell, I even wanted to BE you at the moment. At that moment I knew I needed to change my atmosphere. I needed new friends and new associates. I need to be with YOU! Weeks after seeing your face on that billboard, I remember picking up a catalog for real estate companies and seeing that same advertisement. I cut it out and pasted it in a scrap book as a reminder to never settle for anything less! You were something to aspire to. Every night before I went to bed, I would take out that advertisement and stare at it for hours envisioning our life together as a power couple making millions of dollars buying re-decorating and selling houses!  It was a fantasy that I looked forward to dreaming about!
But of course I had no way of ever getting to meet you and I wouldn't dare call you so I did nothing. I went along my merry way and got back into the single swing of my life. I never thought about you  again until that fateful day you walked into my office building for a meeting with my boss! I saw you and my jaw dropped! Right then, I had to take a chance! Some how I managed to get in on the negotiation of a deal for rental property that my boss was discussing and I got to go along with you and my boss to see the property (driving in separate cars of course).
Showing homes to prospective buyers is nothing new to you. To you it was like any other day.  I was just another client to you, nothing special. To me your presence in my life at the moment was everything! You represented the possibility that dreams really do come true and the God really does answer prayers! I knew that us meeting this way was a sign! I had to be in your life somehow but unfortunately I was in no position for romance. I was working for pennies and you made millions. You wore designer suits and had millionaire clients. I wore whatever I could find on the sales rack at Walmart! You had friends that owned businesses. I had friends that worked for your friends. I wasn't your equal and I knew it! I guess I didn't want to meet you because you would realize it and break my heart. There had to be another way to get into your life.
I decided to approach you as a prospective buyer of a home myself. I convinced my self that I wouldn't technically be lying because one day I would like to buy a house. So, after agonizing over the decision to call you for a few weeks, I finally got up the nerve and dialed the number on your advertisement. It rang, you answered and your voice was so charming I almost fainted! You sounded like every thing I could have ever imagined. Your thoughts were clear and concise just like the business man I knew you would be. We set a time to meet. It was Monday at 6:00 p.m in your office.
When we met, you didn't look the same. You had lost a bit of weight and you were kind of in a rush. I knew you felt as if I was wasting your time when I told you that I had bad credit. You rushed me out and said you had another meeting. I could only imagine that you were in a hurry to get to your girlfriend or wife. I never got to ask you all the personal questions I wanted to ask because you kept it all business. I felt really awful afterwards and vowed that I would get myself together and one day be worthy of being in your life! I never saw you again until a year later.
I was working at a new job and the money was okay but not enough, but it was a lot more than what I was used to. One day while talking to a few co-workers I began surfing the web and decided to Google you. Another company came up and you were the head guy serving as their sales leader. I had to meet you again to show you that I was improved, so I called the number and set up a meeting, this time, I expressed that we had met before and that I wanted to get to know you. I felt that honesty was the best policy and I really had nothing to lose. I was more confident than I was a year ago. Well, when I got to the place to meet with you, you weren't there, however I met up with one of your associates and I talked to him. I told him that we had a mutual friend in common and he decided to help me get a job with your firm. That meant I got to see you every day! It was great, however, you never knew that was the reason for why I was there. Every chance I got I would make it my business to be where you were whenever you were in the building. I would always find a reason to empty the trash in your office, or get on the computer in the computer lab whenever you were there. I never really got the nerve to talk to you because you were either in a meeting, talking to someone else or just not paying me any attention. I started wearing low cut blouses and figure fitting slacks to work, just to see if you would notice. I drew attention but it wasn't from you but your associate on your team. He was cool but I really wanted you!
Your associate asked me out and I turned him down. I took the opportunity to tell him that I had feelings for you and that was the only reason I had accepted the job. He laughed in my face and told me that you thought I was a joke! A silly little girl looking for attention. He told me that you knew I was interested in you and he said that you ignored me on purpose just to see if I would speak to you just as a game! You laughed at me! You made fun of me behind my back, then you started to flirt with one of my co-workers just to annoy me! I felt so embarrassed and ashamed, that I faked an illness and never went back to work for your company ever again. That experience made me realize that I had put you on a pedestal. I used you as a motivation for my success. You were the prize that I never really won and I never realized why until now.
Now that I am successful in my own right I realize that I used you to motivate me to reach my goal. You represented power and success, which was something I wanted! When I couldn't have you at that moment, I took it as if I couldn't be powerful or successful. I inevitably  got depressed, angry and really embarrassed but most of all humiliated. Not towards you but toward myself for ever feeling that way about you. It was crazy of me to seek you out like that and force myself into your life, only to never get up the nerve to talk to you. I don't blame you for thinking of me as a weirdo! Trust me, seeing myself through your eyes was definitely a wake up call. I had to find another way to motivate myself to get to where I wanted to be. I just had to learn patience.
I never gave up seeking power or success, I just gave up on ever wanting you because the idea of you being powerful and successful was a hell of a lot better than the reality of you. In reality, you are a jerk and I was a fool for ever thinking that your life was any better than the life I could create for myself! I had a foolish crush on you. I had a secret crush! Secret crushes only lead to stalking and that was never my intention. But one thing is for sure though, I will never make that mistake of secretly crushing over a guy I don't even know. I know who I am now. I am a woman that knows what she wants and will never be afraid to go after it! That is just the type of woman I am, but this time, there won't be any secrets and I won't be afraid of rejection because I know I am a good catch. If a man won't have me in his life then it is HIS LOSS! From now on, I live my life like its gold!

The Special Friend

To My "Special Friend",
I remember the day when we first met. It was a cool fall afternoon. You were leaving the bookstore and I was entering the bookstore. I remember that day because I was going to look for a book on how to get back in shape. When I broke up with my last boyfriend, I vowed not to be insecure and decided to makes some changes in my life. That day was a defining moment for me and meeting you on that day had proven it. When you held the door open for me you smiled and said hello. When our eyes met, you took my breath away! I told myself that I would never fall for the same guy again so, I said hello and kept it moving!
You were handsome, and very attractive, yet I could no longer allow myself to fall for such a guy right off the bat. I thought about you for a few moments after that but by the end of the day I had forgotten all about you. A week went by and I went back to the bookstore, and there you were again, leaving as I was exiting! Again you spoke to me but this time you were more confident and asked for my phone number. I never really expected it. I was suppose to spout out a fake number as I have always done when guys I'm not interested in ask for my digits but this time, I blurted out my real one! However, I know guys and they usually never call.  I had always thought that a lot of them just ask for the number just to see if they can get it and you were no exception. Oh well! After a few weeks of not  one single phone call from you, I forgot about you AGAIN.
So you can understand how surprised I was when I saw you in Walmart! You were entering this time, and I was exiting the store. I noticed that you had two personal cell phones and a bluetooth device in your right ear. I always told myself not to go for guys with two cell phones because it usually indicates that they are players and have multiple women if they don't have their own business. Be for real, what other reason must a person have two cell phones? Well, either that or they just don't have any time to spend on new relationships.
 Either way, when you approached me and  assured me that you hadn't forgotten about me and that you would call, I surprisingly felt relieved. I don't know why because everything in my mind is telling me you are not the one but I'm lonely and I really could use the distraction from my boring life.
You finally made the call to me and by that time I had become really excited and looking forward to whatever kind of relationship this was.  It really didn't matter to me at that point if you were a player or not.
Our first date was nice. We went for a walk in the park and we talked and shared our hopes and dreams. Wow! I never imagined what a real honest date would be like and you showed me. You never pressured me into anything, you allowed me to be myself and that was something I wasn't used to. You were a welcoming distraction that turned into something in the story books. By our 10 week anniversary I was head over heals in love and no one could tell me otherwise. I didn't care about the phone calls, the text messages, and the secret emails. I didn't care that whenever we became intimate, you always had something urgent to do afterwards. I didn't care that I never met your family or your close friends. All I wanted was you and I usually get what I want. For the moments that we were together I had you over and over and over again. I didn't want those private moments between us to ever end. I took full advantage of the time we spent together because I knew deep down that it would never last. But it did.
Our relationship lasted longer than I would have ever hoped it would considering your little confession. You told me that you were seeing another woman but you were not intimate with her like you were with me. She was your girlfriend, but I was your lover! You told me anything I wanted from you I could have. I told you all I wanted was you and you told me I had you. But I did have you. I had you up until your wedding day! She got your love, friendship and respect. All I got from you was your body. You know what? I may have been happy with that 7 years ago, but as I sit here and read your text messages, voicemail messages, and emails about how you miss me and still want to be with me, I'm sorry but its just not enough anymore.
Today I just turned thirty years old and I am not the same silly little school girl that believe everything a guy tells her. You see, I no longer hang on every word and expect you to mean what you say because you really don't mean what you say, but you definitely mean what you do. You did get married to another woman that is not me, and for that I will never forgive you. I will never speak to you again and our communication from this point on is no longer something I want. I no longer want you. I am a better woman because you taught me a valuable lesson, If it walks like a duck, quacks like a duck, then damn it, its a duck! You sir are a duck and now I know for a fact that my time with you was not completely in vain because now I can weed out the insignificant relationships in my life! I wish you luck in your marriage because you will need it. If you cheated on her for this long, you will never stop. Some women may not mind being the wife of a man who cheats, but that's only if they never know.

Voice Mail

Wednesday 12:35 p.m.
Message #1:  The person you are trying to reach is unavailable. Please leave a message after the beep. BEEP!
Hey Sweetie, its me. Just thought I would call to let you know I was thinking about you. I would love to spend some time with you this weekend. Call me when you get this message.

Thursday 8:15 a.m.
Message #2:  The person you are trying to reach is unavailable. Please leave a message after the beep. BEEP!
Hey sweetie, its me again. If you called me back, I may not have received your text or message because my phone died. Anyway, call me when you receive this message.

Friday 5:09 p.m.
Message #3: The person you are trying to reach is unavailable. Please leave a message after the beep. BEEP!
Hey babe! I hadn't heard from you in a while. Just calling to confirm our date tomorrow at 7p.m. like we discussed on Tuesday. Let me know something. Call me back!

Saturday 3:50 p.m.
Message # 4: The person you are trying to reach is unavailable. Please leave a message after the beep. BEEP!
Okay, I haven't heard from you in a few days and now I  am assuming that A- something bad has happened to you or B- you are being a jerk! I really don't want to believe that you are a jerk so, please call me back!

Saturday 10:08 p.m.
Message #5: The person you are trying to reach is unavailable. Please leave a message after the beep. BEEP!
I can't believe that you would be so dumb as to bring that girl on the same date  we were supposed to be on. Yes! I saw you with that girl in the pink scarf sitting a few rows up from me in the theater! I'm sure you didn't think I would come without you, but you were mistaken! I hope I never see you again! JERK!

Saturday 10:15 p.m.
Message #6: The person you are trying to reach is unavailable. Please leave a message after the beep. BEEP!
So, I guess I was just the back up to the girl you really wanted to go out with! Its cool! I have a back up plan too! Tomorrow I'm going out with your brother. That's right, the one you said that everyone thinks is better than you! The one you are so jealous of! Yeah! That GUY! LOSE MY NUMBER!!

Saturday 10:30 p.m.
Message #7: The person you are trying to reach is unavailable. Please leave a message after the beep. BEEP!
ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSHOOOOOOOOLLLLEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Saturday 11:00 p.m.
Voice mail Messenger Reply : Mailbox 5559654 is full. Goodbye!